How to Murder Your Life - Cat Marnell

How to Murder Your Life

By Cat Marnell

  • Release Date: 2017-01-31
  • Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
Score: 4.5
From 793 Ratings


From the New York Times bestselling author and former beauty editor Cat Marnell, a “vivid, maddening, heartbreaking, very funny, chaotic” (The New York Times) memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.

At twenty-six, Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America—and that’s all most people knew about her. But she hid a secret life. She was a prescription drug addict. She was also a “doctor shopper” who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists for pills, pills, and more pills; a lonely bulimic who spent hundreds of dollars a week on binge foods; a promiscuous party girl who danced barefoot on banquets; a weepy and hallucination-prone insomniac who would take anything—anything—to sleep.

This is a tale of self-loathing, self-sabotage, and yes, self-tanner. It begins at a posh New England prep school—and with a prescription for the Attention Deficit Disorder medication Ritalin. It continues to New York, where we follow Marnell’s amphetamine-fueled rise from intern to editor through the beauty departments of NYLON, Teen Vogue, Glamour, and Lucky. We see her fight between ambition and addiction and how, inevitably, her disease threatens everything she worked so hard to achieve. From the Condé Nast building to seedy nightclubs, from doctors’ offices and mental hospitals, Marnell “treads a knife edge between glamorizing her own despair and rendering it with savage honesty.…with the skill of a pulp novelist” (The New York Times Book Review) what it is like to live in the wild, chaotic, often sinister world of a young female addict who can’t say no.

Combining “all the intoxicating intrigue of a thriller and yet all the sobering pathos of a gifted writer’s true-life journey to recover her former health, happiness, ambitions, and identity” (Harper’s Bazaar), How to Murder Your Life is mesmerizing, revelatory, and necessary.


  • Love it,Love Cat,Love her story ,just Love

    By jenna skateeny
    With a capital L
  • The most honest thing I’ve ever read...

    I’m obsessed! So good, it captures you and you really feeel like you’re in Cats mind.
  • Unbelievable

    By Like o
    Unbelievable, couldn’t put it down
  • Good read

    By Bina322
    I am not a good writer but I am a good reader. This was a great book. I hope the story or Cat’s life ends well and I wish her all the best.
  • Loved this book!

    By Monicaandyourmother
    I had never heard of Cat before deciding to give this book a shot and man she did not disappoint. It was hilarious, sad, heartbreaking, relatable, honest, raw. I read some reviews on here beforehand that said “I was expecting her to be sober in the end”......because all stories have to have a fairytale ending to be good....? Anyway, reading this book I got exactly what I paid for. Her honestly is brutal and refreshing. You won’t be disappointed.
  • Catchy at Every Paragraph

    By Meredith006
    If you loved Go Ask Alice - you’ll love this too!
  • Couldn’t put down

    By Col in ny
    I read this book in one day. So engrossing - I loved it!
  • Amazing read

    By .;;:(
    I loved this book, it was hard to put down! For anyone who has, or still is, struggling with addiction-this is a must read. Makes you realize you aren’t the only “weirdo” out there. Thanks Cat for all the insight and the brutally honest truth about your life, it truly helped me feel not alone! You give hope to those who are feeling like they are going nowhere and let them know it’s ok to be a work in progress
  • Amazing

    By Maddyyyyyy
    Gripping. Gritty. Raw. A page turner for sure. Breathtakingly honest.
  • Tedious and poorly written

    By this was a NYTimes bestseller?
    Kept expecting the story to get interesting or insightful, but it doesn’t. Cat is vapid and her snark is sophomoric.